Dr Seuss.
Its 5am, and I toss and turn trying to go back to
sleep. I focus, craning to hear a sound
or a voice calling me to see what brought me out of my slumber. It is still dark, the moment just before the
birds awake. The world outside is mostly
silent apart from the odd car engine grumbling.
My mind is calm but curious as to why I am awake so
early. Naturally I raise my internal voice to sing the bridge of the song still
resonating with my spirit from Church the night before:-
“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders, let me walk upon the
waters wherever You would call me. Take
me deeper than my feet could ever wander and my faith will be made stronger in
the presence of my Saviour” (Hillsong United)
“Speak Lord your servant is
listening” I say to my Creator and wait. Flashes of memories come into my mind,
they are memories of my father’s parents.
I see my grandma giggling in delight as she gives me her “squidgy” hugs.
I see my grandpa showing me how to spin honey out of the honeycomb in the back
shed. I remember….. I feel the delight of just being in their presence as a
child, the love. The memory moves on to when I had to say goodbye, the last
time I saw them before they died. What
sadness and yet what beauty knowing that they had a relationship with Jesus.
Have you ever
had moments like that? Where you have
allowed yourself to remember, let in the sadness, relived the happiness and
re-process the confusion?
Have you ever
allowed yourself to see the value in that moment?
Over the last 6 weeks I have been reliving moments
of significance as I complete the study “Undaunted” by Christine Caine. Some of
the memories have brought me back to a time in my life where my world was
turned upside down and I was asking “why me?”. It has been a challenging and
enriching process even though some memories were painful.
I wonder if we stop ourselves from looking back as
an observer because all we see are bad moments….
Can bad moments have value? Yes! I firmly believe
that they often have greater value than the good moments because it is in the
hard times that we tend to dig deeper into God and is the time of most growth.
I know that sometimes it is easier to avoid certain memories but let me
reassure you with something I know to be true.
Every moment in your life can be overcome with
Jesus.
God’s power is present whatever storm we are going
through as true as it is when the sun is shining. Every moment had and has value.
God’s Word is
full of His wisdom about our moments. His truth contains words of comfort,
instruction, healing, praise, correction and encouragement. You name it and there’s a verse for it! Even
the questions – just look at King David pouring out his anguish in the book of
Psalms:-
“Lord, don’t rebuke me in your
anger or discipline me in your wrath.
Have mercy on me, Lord, for I am faint; heal me, Lord, for my bones are
in agony. My soul is in deep anguish.
How long, Lord, how long?” Psalm 6:1-3.
I encourage you
to take time to listen for your Creators voice in those moments of silence. To
wait to see what He wants you to learn moment to moment. I encourage you to
remember – not to hold on to the past but use what you learn to move forward
into what God has planned for your future.
You have a
purpose, a calling that God is eager to move you towards.
Just remember
even taking one small step moves you forwards.
References: Hillsong United - Oceans (Where Feet
May Fail) Lyrics | MetroLyrics
Holy
Bible: New International Version. (2011). Grand Rapids, Mich.: Zondervan
